Mohabbatein II . Vol 20.

: Am , okay ?

: Tak .

: Am , banyak doa.

: I know -.-

: Am , be strong sayang .

: Whatever .

Emosi tak stabil . Bengang . Sedih . Sakit hati . Sebak . Takut . Geram . 

Itu dia. Tiga tiga abang aku tengah bertarung nyawa dalam bilik pembedahan . 

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After 3 hours , done Abang's operation . 

After 6 hours , done Abang Shaf's .

After 15 hours and still counting , still undone Abang Fyk's .

Aku duduk atas kerusi . Genggam tangan sendiri , sejuk . Air mata dah stop mengalir . Am dekat sebelah , merenung ke depan , diam . Mum tengah sibuk mencarut dan maki WHATTHEHELLTHEDOCTORSARE!!STUPIDCARELESSSSSSDOCTORSSS ! .
Aku pandang mama . Sebak rasanya .

Aku : Enough mum. Banyaklah istighfar.

Mama : I just can't accept their carelessness sayang .

Aku : You won't change anything by cursing them -.-

Mama : I know hmm . Kenapa adik marah kat mama ?

Aku : Because you weren't there when we need you .

Mama : I busy lah sayang . . . 

Aku : Yeah , we know . You've been busy since we were kids . TAKKAN LAH I TAK FAHAM FAHAM KAN ? , and where the hell dad is ? !

Am : Rileks Am . She's your mum .

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Doctor keluar dari operation room abang Fyk .

: Sorry , we can't help him . Allah lagi sayangkan dia .

Now tell me what should I do ? Menangis . Besar dugaan aku dapat. Dapat parents macam tu , abang Fyk is gone , Abang and Abang Shaf pun tengah sakit . Aku tak tahu nak buat apa sekarang . I'm only 17 and aku tak sekuat mana pun nak terima semua niiii .

Abang and Abang Shaf , Abang Fyk dah takdeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :'(

'IF abang abang you ni dah takde nanti , promise dengan abang Fyk you kuat . Promise me ?'

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Aku pandang Am .

Am senyum .

Aku : Kenapa senyum ?

Am : Somehow you still have the guts to keep moving . Tabah lah okay ?

Mira , Kyra and Lyn datang . Diorang peluk aku . Aku menangis gila takleh blah sedih nak mati dekat bahu diorang . They're my only strength for this moments. 

: Kitorang ada dengan kau sayang . Be strong .

Isz , Iky and Ash sampai . 

Aku tengok diorang uruskan pasal jenazah abang Fyk dekat kaunter . Am call orang surau . Isz jumpa doctors . Ash and Iky tengah discuss pasal apa entah hmmm . Aku terdiam . *kesat air mata * They're more than a friend , they're families .

Aku pandang mum and dad . Tengah sibuk jawab call lepastu gaduh gaduh blame sesama sendiri . I've no parents , I only have brothers .